how did i get here?
I was just talking to a friend and we were talking about how life unfolds and how you suddenly find yourself in a place where you never thought you would be. Which is something I have thought about a great deal lately. How did I get here? How do I suddenly find myself in this weird, messed up, and fascinating city called Roma? I couldn't tell you even if I tried, I cannot pin-point one single event that led me here. I always knew I would go back to school...Eventually, but the more I worked and the more I got sucked into the routine and dramas of everyday, working life, the further away it seemed, then all of a sudden. Poof! I was here, in Rome, in this tiny little room that is now one of my most favorite places in the world! Why do I feel this way about a room that used to be green and is about the size of my old closet? How did I suddenly get all these new plans and dreams about my life? When did I suddenly decide I wanted to move to Australia for a year? I don't know. From what I remember I just woke up one day thinking, "wow, that's a good idea, I will do that". Have I changed? I feel in many ways my life has gotten a lot simpler, not as much routine as it was before, maybe that is what I find it simpler, but it isn't really simpler, I work hard and I play hard, like any student would, but there isn't as much to think about anymore, all I have to think about is getting good grades, making my parents proud, and most of all making myself proud! Making sure I feel I do everything I can in this precious time that I usually take for granted.
What other time in my life could I ever decide to just move? Just go to Greece with my roommates because that is what we want to do for Spring Break? When did living in a crazy house filled with way too much estrogen become just another "normal". How is living with 5 American girls, all with their charms and wits, normal? It was something I never thought I would have to do, and frankly, when I heard I might have to share an apartment with 5 other girls, I almost peed my pants. It was NOT something I was looking forward to. But now that I am here, I couldn't imagine going through this crazy University life without them, right there. Abby being her crazy self not knowing that Paris is the capital of France, not the other way around. Katelyn with her little body, but huge personality saying stuff like, "hate me or love me, it is still an obsession." Gabby with her amazing ability to listen to me whenever I feel like I need to rant and her closet is always open. Hah. And Ilyssa, who I do almost everything with and it makes me happy knowing she is just down the hall. I am lucky to have them and we have created our own little bubble of reality in our apartment that we now call home and I like the new reality I have here, it is good, nice, but not calm, which I like right now...
I never thought I would be where I am today, I always knew I would do something, but not this, but now that it is here, I guess I just have to remind myself that although things don't always go by the plan I have set for myself, there are always nice surprises around the corner. Now I guess only time will show if I do go to Australia for a year, or if I stay here, or maybe I will move somewhere else. All I know is, I am going to try and not take this time for granted, because I am lucky to get to have the experience I am having right now. And hopefully, I will have a few more years of trying to decide what I want to do and what I want to be when I grow up, because I sure as hell don't know now! Do I want to work with people? An office? Am I diplomatic enough to work with people I don't understand? Should I take a Masters? Should I try and work for the UN? Maybe I should just switch majors and see what it is like on the other side! Well.. With all these questions I guess it is good I am just on my second semester here at AUR!
That was my little philosophical, "where am i going" blog for tonight.
























































































































































































































